This Little Part of My Life

This Little Part of My Life

This Little Part of my life is called ... Frustration overcome.. Happiness........ Well it all seemed to me that I was fighting for something! To be honest, it was all frustrating to be rejected for no good damn reason! When they said that I have the basic knowledge I was frustrated!! When the said that I am not intelligent I was frustrated ! When the said that I was average student I was frustrated ! But when they said I was good I was okay ! And when they said that I had the potential and I have proved myself , then this little part of me is called Happiness !! This was the first time in my life (life lived till now), that I fought back for what I have become and deserved! Maybe that’s what I am, always treated as an underdog, I knew that this moment would be there, where in I have to survive and prove that I am the fittest of all, and am ready for all the hard comings and whatever. It all felt so good after being invited all again, after gruel some, 4-5 rounds, everything seem to fall in place and I was there as a winner. Just tonight I have to work on something which is my last go and after that everything would be normal. Maybe I have to work these whole days as something which might be very gruesome and tough to handle! But then I know that I can do it and this is my last step towards all together a new beginning of my life! I have a maximum of 8 hours to prove that what I can do is something too good and worthy. Within these 8 hours I have to build a system, a system which is stable enough and sufficient to give me that edge over all the things! A database a program and everything!

It was such long time that I was trying to kill the pain! But, then today I have to let it go ! Wish somebody was there just to rest my head, and ease all the pain. There are people who would never understand what you want in your life, it’s not easy to heal or mend, but then there are times when you can emerge from the wounds to heal a apart of yourself, where in it would become invincible if somebody tries to refrain you from reaching those pinnacles of success. There are times when you may want to have favors etc, but then that’s not the end, sometimes they need you and you need them, that’s a bit of Altruism. When all the fear inside you resides, that’s when the best of you comes out! You know that there are something which love you, its not the people who are around you, it is that materialistic feeling which does not exist, or even though it exists it, comes out when you get what you want, you get when you need it! I am so happy about things happening my way, its the same feeling that is repeating, it was like whenever I used to get good marks in my school days and college days, it was not about showing it to the people around you, but it was about a beginning of a new dream about all the good things that you could become in your life! Well that feeling is once again and maybe that is the reason why I am trying to explain here that, this time it’s not for the people but for me myself and I.

Ah! I! 'I' is that part of me which I have never been able to define to a good extent, its so confusing! What is I a small alphabet in the English dictionary which after 'A', is the last alphabet that can be used as a word. Well no!! I believe I is not an alphabet, but something which can describe a whole sentence, a paragraph or maybe a book! Yes it can! Knowing that 'I' of you is one of the most difficult and the challenging task! How many of we can define that I , maybe none ! Even Hitler couldn’t other wise he would have been able to conquer the world! What about the great leader Gandhi, no not him! Why? Maybe that I, within him wanted to get India independence fast, and something which lacked prevented him to strive that perfection (Nevertheless India got its Independence because of him, and he is considered as one of the greatest leaders of the century)…. To be Continued…..Lots to write about that I .......... Till then the perfect song........

Risin' up, back on the street
Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I'm back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive

So many times, it happens too fast
You change your passion for glory
Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive

Chorus:
It's the eye of the tiger, it's the cream of the fight
Risin' up to the challenge of our rival
And the last known survivor stalks his prey in the night
And he's watchin' us all in the eye of the tiger

Face to face, out in the heat
Hangin' tough, stayin' hungry
They stack the odds 'til we take to the street
For we kill with the skill to survive